We're still here despite not posting for a while but its been a whirlwind few months of ups and downs.
I'd started typing in April with hopes of taking a short break but capturing a load of creative activity that was happening at that time. And then my cat Coco got really sick on a Sunday night and we had to say goodbye to her on the Monday. It broke my heart, it breaks my heart to type it and its a pain that will continue to make me sad for a long time, maybe forever. The year started with loss and April brought a whole new dimension of grief and pain. This was combined with starting a new job as General Manager at Peacock & the worm, a dream job but one that presents many challenges and has really taken a lot of my creative brain that I'd normally put into writing the blog and the Deen Scene mails.
It's forced me to take a break and thoughts about stopping Creative Aberdeen have been sitting on me, niggling away as the daily pressures pull me in multiple directions. Even a passion project like Nuart Aberdeen, which I have invested so much of my heart and soul into had to take a back seat. I don't want to mess up this incredible opportunity that's been passed my way, getting to work in a creative environment with a brilliant team and after 9 years in a basement with no windows I now get to see natural light spill into our beautiful studio everyday. So I feel incredibly lucky but it's taken til now for me to catch my breath.
There's still something niggling at me, it might be stopping the Deen Scene emails as they take a lot of time to collate but have also provided so much great feedback, and at times really kind messages from folks. But there is part of me that's itching to push that 'FUCK IT' button. Maybe its the prospect of turning 40 in July and feeling like I've done my time trying to support Aberdeen's creative organisations while often getting little back. Nor has there been much to gain from blogging, unless you value meeting artists and making connections with people which thankfully I do. It's been almost 15 years since I started the blog and the past year has been pretty special, from Snug to the Art Club and all the amazing people I've met and become friends with. Maybe I just need to dial back into that space a bit more.
It's certainly good to be typing and getting my thoughts into some kind of order. For now its sporadic insta up dates and hopefully supporting some good work at Peacock and maybe a holiday in July to help re set the clock. But I miss my furry friend, maybe some Coco street art will help to heal some wounds too. She brought so much comfort and joy to our lives.
